"Oh, all that i know, there's nothing here to run from...

It's going to be warmer in Utah than in mississippi tomorrow (by one degree). Madness.

In other maddening news, I found out today that my Dad has to have an operation tomorrow for Colon cancer. From what i've heard, it seems that after the operation it should be fine, but still, it's scary and weird. That's twice this year that someone i've cared about has had to deal with cancer, i still don't know what to do with it.

This is also weird because i have a very hard time imagining my dad sick. He's never sick, i honestly can't think of a single time in my life that he's been sick, i'm sure they've happened, but i can't remember them. I think i have this image of my dad being above things like disease and age, which is sort of how i feel about myself as well, which adds to the weirdness of all this because if he's not immune to things like that, i don't suppose i am either. Without a doubt one of my greatest fears is becoming old, or more specifically, incapable. But yeah, if you're the type to pray, it'd definitely be appreciated.

Despite this, and to my surprise, life continues. This weekend looks to be enjoyable, although i expect tomorrow will be difficult, 4 straight hours of class, that on what looks to be very little sleep, but once that's done i can relax and enjoy my weekend. If i can convince Kelly to take me to donate plasma i'll go snowboarding on Saturday. I've realized that this friend i've made is a whole lot like Logan, it's sort of weird, but Logan (and therefore jake, said friend) being a righteous dude, it makes for some fun times.

I don't know...little things seem so pointless at the moment, i need to sleep.

...and there, everybody's got somebody to lean on"

"But then he won't be wise!"

well, i am now short three wisdom teeth. Happily i get to keep one of my lower wisdom teeth, which means about half as much pain and i retain the ability to chew, which is a big plus. I took some photos of the experience, because that's what i can do.




not the greatest day outside, but it was as good a day as any to sit in bed for 24 hours.

I don't remember much of the whole experience. I went in, and they talked to me a bit, i got an IV. They anesthetized it, which seemed pretty unnecessary, especially since it still seemed like it hurt about as much as normal. Then they gave me a shot of something, and about 10 seconds later i was out. It was interesting because usually i don't really remember falling asleep, but this time i actually felt it coming on and losing consciousness. Anyway, sometime later i woke up feeling pretty out of it. I got up and really wanted to walk on my own, but my mom helped me, which was probably good, since about 2 hours later i was still struggling to walk without running into things.

I wish i had asked the doctors to set my camera up on time lapse, because that would have been a sweet video, but alas. Anyway, i took some pictures while i was pretty out of it, i don't really remember taking them, but they're here, so that's cool.

Me being out of it.



Me being more out of it.




I couldn't focus on anything, and somehow i though this would be apparent if i took a picture of my eye.





but it wasn't.

After that my camera's battery died, and i wasn't awake enough to charge it up for a few hours.

At about 7 that night i was awake enough though, and so i took a sweet picture of my eye.




So yeah, i'm feeling a bit better now. The left side of my mouth still hurts a decent bit, but it's getting better, and the whole delirium thing has passed, so that's a plus. My homemade camera case got left in the car i think, it's easy to lose things when you're barely concious, because the whole, "where's the lst place you had it" strategy doesn't work when you can't remember large spans of your day.

I made a pretty awesome video of myself, i'm going to try to post that, and hopefully it'll work. Woo it will, it's going to take a while.



It's sort of hard to tell what i'm saying, but this is the gist:
"well, i just got my wisdom teeth out, and i can't really focus on anything or ???? things. I think i'm biting my lip, but hopefully this will be funny when i'm, you know, cognizant again, so, till then."

So fun times, not being able to spit is a bit of a drag, especially when brushing my teeth, which is also a drag since i can't brush all my teeth. Hopefully i'll be better by new years.

I couldn't sleep at all last night, probably symptomatic of sleeping all day, but it was still a pain. Sometime while i was mostly asleep i had a dream that i made a really good sandwich and then remembered that i couldn't eat it. That was disappointing to the max.

I watched meet the Robinson's the other day, which was a surprisingly good movie. Plus the Danny Elfman and All American Rejects combo is always something worthwhile. That about all for now, i need to finish my made gift.